january 8th

this is my favorite scarf. i wear if with almost everything. my mom made it for my a few years ago. i love it!

still noisy at our house during the day. 

most of the day i worked on creating a website for my photography business. i dislike website creation very much. so...we'll see how it goes. when i wasn't doing the website crap i organized and sorted more junk. and did i mention how noisy it was! 

i was bored today...so i finished reading the book. i didn't feel like cooking tonight and we just did whatever and ate leftovers. 

i went to the library to get a new book. i don't think i'll start it yet. i have a migraine and keeping my eyes open hurts and i just need to sit still and keep them shut. when i was at the library i visited with lydia a bit and said hi to a few other people that were browsing and went home. 

lilo and i played for little bit. it's hard, because she wants to play and be frisky but she can't jump and run as fast as she used to. it makes me sad.

and while i'm at it...being sad that is...during this time of year it seems to be a struggle for me and i can't help but look through a tote i have of all the hospital memories and cards and gifts and lots of stuff. i sit and think of what i was doing on each day while i was in the hospital...the ones that i remember that is. so basically remember the days i was in therapy rehabilitation. it's hard...but why i wonder. is it because i miss how my life was? or that i'm basically a different person? is it because i have such empathy for others that i can't help but wonder what they went through, what their thoughts and emotions were during that time...but why?

then i went to bed with lots of thoughts running through my mind and knowing that it will be a long night of no sleep no matter how many tylenol pm i take.

more tomorrow...